(This was supposed to be posted yesterday, but it didn't work.)
I hate being lonely. Everything about the word just makes me want to cry. So when I feel lonely, I don't know what to do. I feel like in the 5 days I was gone, I disappeared. I came back to another world; a world where I didn't exist and I wasn't needed. Plans were made without me, I was left out of conversations, and I felt like an outsider.
Perhaps you have felt this way. You're friends take off, leaving you in the dust. How did you deal with it? Did you cry? Did you feel nothing?
I will not stand by and let this happen. I will move on if necessary, and live the life I have. There is no turning back.