Yesterday.... yesterday gave me a lot to think about. I finished reading a book that applies to my relationship with one of my friends, and it made me re-think it a little bit. Like maybe we aren't really meant to be friends. I don't know. On top of that I have to make a resume and take it down to All Pets IN PERSON. I am way not looking forward to that. I concocted a plan for making the next 4 years easier, but it's not fully ready yet. I told my ideas to one person last night, and in the process set myself up for having one of my poems read and got ANOTHER book to read, this time by Sunday. How I get myself into these positions, I don't know. Now I'm sitting here trying to figure out if I should go tonight, because I'm not sure if I even want to. A part of me does, to see my friend again, but another part of me feels like something... bad is going to happen. Maybe I'm being paranoid. Maybe I'm scared. I don't really know either way, all I know is I need to decide soon, because it's almost noon and I'm supposed to be there at 3!