Sorry for posting so much lately, but I've been doing a lot of thinking.
Watching her get voted off tonight when she did so well this week.... It made me realize that circumstances can change in a heart beat.
My future...... I don't have it all planned out. I know what I want to do, but I don't know if it;s what I'm supposed to do or where God is leading me. I have an idea, but is it what He wants?
What college am I going to? People keep asking me that, and I don't know. I have my three choices, and I have my grad school picked out, but I don't have the money to afford college, and no job to support myself with.
Then there's all relationships of every kind..... Will they remain they way they are? Will they worsen? Get better? Will everything work out, or should it end now?
I don't like not knowing what's gonna come. The future scares me, and it scares me a lot. Only now am I beginning to realize just how much I need to pray and lean on God. I'm grateful for my friends; without them I don't know where I'd be and I'm sure I'd have no faith in God.
The other day my brother told me for the first time that he was gonna miss me when I left. I almost cried. I love him so much, and it's hard only seeing him every other week. I don't know how we're gonna survive the distance.
I could write so much more on my fears and concerns regarding the future and where it'll take me, but I need to get to bed soon, and I doubt you want to read another novel by me.
It would be so nice to just stop time....